Despite my best efforts, lately, I have found myself becoming very irritated. Everything is pissing me off–people, videos, myself… I just want things to go back to normal. I am trying so hard to not yell at everyone and take it out on them. I’m trying so hard to find my peace, to calm my mind and the agitation I feel in my body. I just have to stop being a bitch.
I took it out today on my poor Gram. I feel like such an ass. She said she had an appointment at two thirty PM, and my mind instantly thought the worst. I freaked out, asking her what was going on, where she was going, who she was going to see… She wasn’t outright with me, which made me think she was hiding something from me (she does that sometimes). Instead of being calm about it, or just dropping it, I kept pressing and pressing and pressing, getting angrier and angrier with every word. In the end, I pretty much exploded at her before going into the store.
Once inside, Covey looked at me and laid me out. I was being snappy and bitchy; everything was bothering me. I needed to chill, to find my center again. So, with her help, I did. I felt like such an ass after (I still do), so I apologized to them both. We ended up getting pizza and chatting in the car for a bit.
What the fuck is wrong with me.
We are home now. It’s windy and rainy out, just gross. I think we’re going to just relax for the rest of the day–watch some YouTube videos, hang out on the couch, maybe role-play a bit. There are things I would like to get done, but it might be for the best to just…chill.
The other day/night/morning, Covey and I worked on a bunch of face masks. My mom had asked me to make a ton for this lady that she knows who needs some for her elderly father. I agreed. Between the two of us, we ended up making around thirty. Mom took eight for the lady and her dad, then four for herself and for for my soon-to-be step-father. The rest we gave to my grandma and to my aunt Wendy. I think we’re going to be putting some more together as needed. Thank goodness I have a stash of wire, elastic, and quilter’s cotton fabric. Plus…it gives me something to do.
Other than masks, I really want to work on a few quilts, maybe some clothing (shorts for Covey, since she doesn’t really have any and summer is coming up pretty soon…), as well as a few other sewn things. Mainly, though, I will be working on new dolls.
I have a few planned out.
Rumarus Zhou–one of my original characters. He’s half magpie, but is convinced he is the reincarnation of the Phoenix King (one of the Gods of Creation in his world). He is also the Prince of his Kingdom, though due to a curse he has never left his castle. Many of his powers are transformation and fire based; he can take small creatures and make them human-ish. He has a servant named Thomas who was once a pill bug.
Etoile and Muffy (from Animal Crossing)–two lovely sheep ladies. In my mind/head-canon, they started out as neighbors, then friends, then evolved into lovers and finally got married under a lovely tree in the center of town. The doll versions of them are going to be lolita-fashion styles–gothic for Muffy and for Etoile, she’ll be like, dolly-pastel? I’m still figuring it out. I also want to edit the dolls to make their feet into hooves.
Vexen (Kingdom Hearts)–because I love this fucker. I’m not sure if I’ll make his shield, too. Maybe at one point? I really would like to make him and do him justice. He basically was the hidden hero of KH3 anyway. He needs more love.
Grell Sutcliff–again, because I fucking love her. I might make two versions– ‘Butler’ Grell and how she regularly appears. This is kind of funny, as when I first started to make dolls, she was the entire reason I wanted to start. I wanted to make a doll of her. Honestly, I started one once but I didn’t like it, so this year, I’ve decided to start again.
Nox and Balt Honeytongue–Playable/Original Characters for our Dungeons and Dragons campaign. I play Nox, and Covey plays Balt. They are twins, Nox being a Sorcerer and an entertainer who is slightly obsessed with sex; Balt is a Bard with Sorcerer origins and is really sweet, naive, and a lover of animals (even though he really annoys most of those that he speaks with). At the moment, they’ve helped to take over a giant fortress that is on the back of a huge tortoise! Nox has gone ahead to the next town to let them know not to attack…all the while, they are on the look out for lycanthropes.
So…yeah. There are probably a few other dolls I would like to make, but for now? those are the ones I’m working on/planning out. Whee.