I have been playing a lot of video games as of late. I know a lot of people don’t take female gamers seriously, and furthermore, don’t take gamers seriously at all. I think it can be a great get away for those of us with over active imaginations. I feel safe when I’m playing a game–even a horror one, like my current obsession with “The Evil Within”–and I don’t have to deal with personal interaction (online or face-to-face) unless I feel the need to.
Along with “The Evil Within,” I have been playing an RPG called “Persona 5.” As the name suggests, it’s the fifth installment in the series. It’s part of a larger series of games called “Shin Megami Tensei.” The basic idea is that you, as the characters, summon demons to do battle for you. The series tends to be very dark, and you often find yourself toeing the line between good and evil (if you don’t plunge yourself right into one of the paths, of course).
Let’s talk about something I really love–coffee. It swims in my blood. Hell, it practically IS my blood. Sadly, because I am overweight, I have to go on a diet (well, change my eating habits, rather), and as a part of that, I have to cut down on caffeine. That means I’m only allowed two cups of my liquid love a day. Please note that I normally drink anywhere between three to six cups a day–and we’re talking large, 12 oz. cups. Now, I’ve cut it back to two 10 oz. cups a day, and eventually, I have to cut that down to two 8 oz. cups a day. I can have decaf coffee all I want, but what’s the point of that? Though I love the taste of coffee, decaf just doesn’t cut it. Oh, and the headaches! Terrible, terrible.
A lot of things are really happening at once. My eating habits have to change, my wife and I are moving, and, thankfully, she was approved for SSI. This comes with problems, however. I’m on SSDI myself because of my bi-polar, anxiety, depression, and PTSD (I’m just a mess, really I am), and we are not entirely certain how much money my wife will be able to make on her SSI. She received a phone call yesterday saying that she had been approved, but they have yet to calculate how much money she will be allotted each month. It’s a good thing to get extra money–Gods know we need it–but being in limbo over how much is giving us more of a headache than the lack of coffee is.
Keeping us sane is our cat, Jasper. She’s the sweetest, most loving thing in the world, I swear to the Gods. She’s part Maine Coon and a total love bug. She loves to be held like a baby and cuddle. No matter what happens, she loves us and cares for us. It’s crazy to think of how just a little, furry baby has changed our lives so much!